When I'm Thirty-Four

Thursday, January 09, 2020
Right, first of all, can I just say that typing out the title to this blog post gave me the heebies. In the next decade, I'll be thirty-four, holy smokes. Anyway, if you got The Beatles reference-ish, well done. I was going to do my usual new year's resolutions, which I have to an extent, in my own diary. However, I'll admit I felt a bit of pressure. Online I saw waves of other people's successes and achievements of the last year alone and felt like mine didn't quite measure up. Comparison is bad for you folks, don't do it! To take the load off, I've decided to imagine and plan out how I'd like to see myself in the next decade when I'm, *gulp* thirty-four. 

One year is a long time, but ten years is definitely a lot longer, and it feels a lot more manageable to tick some big things off my list over that span of time than just in one year. Sometimes it takes a year to plan, another year to kick things into gear, and several years down the line to actually see results from all that hard work. Megababe and popstar, Lizzo made a post on social media and it certainly made me realise this. Nothing is an overnight success. It's years of hard work, talent, perseverance, luck, opportunity, timing, and many other factors that come into play. 

I've broken my resolutions down into a mind map, (I used to love doing these when I was a  pre-teen/teen nerd). Mindmaps are great as you can look at them at a glance and find what you want easily then focus on one at a time. I highly recommend you do the same if you plan to make resolutions, to help branch it off into categories...hey, well if you like to be organised like me it might just suit you. (I made this one on Canva)

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P e r s o n a l

- Love myself and others more: I want to judge less, and stop wanting to change so much about myself (oh the irony) and just love myself more, treat myself with more respect and kindness. If I spoke to others how I spoke to myself, I'd be offending a lot of people. I just want to radiate LOVE more and spread it wherever I go.

- Travel more: Self-explanatory but I want to travel whenever I can when time and money allow. There's still so much of the world I want to see so I'd like to keep ticking off new countries and cities. I can get bored with my surroundings so I like a change of scenery from time to time.

- Listen better and be more organised: Though I have the best intentions at heart, sometimes my scatterbrain fails me and I'm not fully present, fretting about the future or dwelling on the past, and thus not being organised or listening to those around me. I want to improve on this and be more efficient and organised.

- Find a new exercise: I'd like to try a new exercise and stick. with. it. I know what sports I don't like, so it will be great to find one that I enjoy and doesn't feel like too much hard work and more like fun. Maybe a dance class? Or yoga which I've tried before. Stay tuned.

- Have my own home: If you read my last post here, then you'll know I've been wanting my own home for a wee while, to eventually not rent would be great, but even for the time being just somewhere that is mine, and not renting in someone else's home. To decorate, cook in my own kitchen, have a little office/studio and maybe even a little library or wardrobe would be the dream.

- Practice gratitude every week: This is something I already do and have been doing so since last year. I find it more doable than every day as I can always find time at least once a week to go over the past week's events and what I'm grateful for. It sums everything up in my head and makes me realise just how many things I have to be grateful for. After my reflection, I think of what I'm grateful for in the week to come. I don't write it down but go over it in my head, whether I'm on the bus to work, or before I go to bed.

- Cook vegan more often: For Christmas, I got Fearne Cotton's new Happy Vegan book and the recipes look amazing! With more and more people going vegan and wanting to better the planet, I'd like to get involved too.

- Improve makeup/hair skills: I used to be very good at makeup, and wanted a career in makeup (fun fact) who knows, maybe one day I will again. First I'd like to get better at it, and more enthusiastic like I used to be. With early mornings at work, I do it as quick as possible but I'd like to regain some core skills and perfect it a bit. And my hair, cause I never know what the heck to do with it. Considering I watch Youtube videos a lot on makeup, I can pick up a thing or two from them. Recently watching Glow Up on Netflix reignited this desire in me.

- Get my drivers license: Self-explanatory again, I just want to get this done and out of the way, when I have enough money. Hey, Lady Gaga didn't get her's till her 30's either. I'm being good to the planet by using public transport and walking more for now...

- Play an instrument again: I used to get drum lessons in my teens and again at uni for a while. I'd maybe like to pick it up again.

S o c i a l

- Fall in love: Cheesy but I don't care! My past relationships have been both fun and some not-so-great relationships but those are over and done, and now I feel deserving of long-lasting love and ready to fall in love with another person too.

- Spend time with loved ones, nourish those relationships: Something I do already, but I want to make the most of the relationships I already have whether that's amongst my family or friendships and nourish them by putting the time and effort in. 

- More outings (concerts, events, festivals, etc.): Self-explanatory again but simply make more effort to see bands as I love doing so, attend unusual/spontaneous events, and go to more festivals...starting this year by ticking Glastonbury off the list!!!

- Make healthy new relationships: As it says, I want any new relationships to be healthy ie. that they bring me happiness, creativity, inspiration, love.

- Interact with people who have similar desires in life to myself: Sort of ties in with the above. I feel like this has already started with my new job, that I'm around like-minded people, and the more this happens the better. It's good to be surrounded by people with similar passions and a similar direction in life so you can bond, share, help one another and always have/give encouragement and support along the way.

- Be good to the environment: Something that should be on ALL of our resolution lists. Help the environment in any way you can. Protest like Thunberg, reduce meat, ride a bike, plant a tree, use reusable coffee cups, anything. I want to do this when I can. But also not feel guilty when I don't sometimes.


P r o f e s s i o n a l

- Evolve into a career in cinema: Cinema is my love, cinema is my passion. I eventually want my career to go in this direction, despite the odds, the difficulties, I want a career in cinema. What exactly, I'm not sure yet.

- Write and make a short film: I've been slowly researching and learning as much as I can about writing screenplays before I dive in and do my own but I eventually would like to. I have many story ideas popping into my head and I hope to put pen-to-paper one day and make it happen.

- Get back into acting classes: I did a 10-week beginners acting class back in Liverpool, and performed a quick dialogue in front of a small audience. I never mentioned it here but I'm pretty proud (and embarrassed) about it. The fact I remembered the lines was an achievement. I'd like to do more acting again, it helped a lot with my confidence and was just fun!

- Master another language: Now that I've mastered English (well thank god for that, I was born with it...) and French! I'd like to sharpen my Spanish where I have some skills already and get better at it, and maybe call myself trilingual instead of bilingual one day.

- Customise clothes: I used to do this when I was young, but in my future home, I'd love a sewing machine and want to get creative with up-cycling clothes and going out in clothes that I've customised and created, instead of things made by other high street brands. How cool it would be to say, I made it, when someone compliments your outfit!

- Write for magazines/websites: As I evolve with my blog, I'd like to write for a few online publications and get some writing bits published here and there. I think I have a talent for writing (at least I have a talent somewhere!) and share it on different platforms I admire.

- Do a small photo exhibition: Just a lil idea, I noticed nearby there's a cafe who does little photo exhibitions, and I'm enjoying getting into film photography again, and sort of have an eye for it, so I'd like to maybe get some pictures on a wall for others to see. Overall, I want to create, create, create - less passivity, and more active creation!

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And, phew, that's kind of it, I think. Hey maybe these are more like lifetime goals, who the flip knows where life will go eh! At the beginning of last year, I thought my life had no chance of improving and no way did I think I'd be working at a radio station many months later. Life has a funny way of surprising you so just go with the flow and see where it leads you. Have some plans, definitely, that's good, but don't expect everything to go in a straight direction, you might be taken on diversions, detours, roundabouts...anyway you get me, I hope?! 

Good luck with your next decade, may it bring you happiness and love!

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